the truth about trust

"We often presume that trust will dispel the confusion, illuminate the darkness, vanquish the uncertainty, and redeem the times. But the crowd of witnesses in Hebrews 11 testifies that this is not the case. Our trust does not bring final clarity on this earth. It does not still the chaos or dull the pain or provide a crutch. When all else in unclear, the heart of trust says, as Jesus did on the cross, Into your hands I commit my spirit."

"The way of trust is a movement into obscurity, into the undefined, into ambiguity, not into some predetermined, clearly delineated plan for the future. The next step discloses itself only out of a discernment of God acting in the desert of the present moment. The reality of naked trust is the life of a pilgrim who leaves what is nailed down, obvious, and secure, and walks into the unknown without any rational explanation to justify the decision or guarantee the future. Why? Because God has signaled the movement and offered it his presence and his promise."

[both quotes from Ruthless Trust by Brennan Manning]



oh, for grace to trust Him more!

road trip.

I'm already ready for another one. 

in the hands of the Potter.

 "I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. But the pot he was shaping from the clay was marred in his hands; so the potter formed it into another pot, shaping it as seemed best to him."

Jeremiah 18:3-4

      

birthdays.

thank you everyone who called, texted, sang, wrote and celebrated with me.
happy birthday to me.

:)

heaven.

when we arrive at eternity's shores 
where death is just a memory and tears are no more. 
we'll enter in as the wedding bells ring 
Your bride will come together and we'll sing: 
You're beautiful.




sometimes I just. can't. wait. 

today I am thankful...

1. For Ben Rector's new album, Something Like This. I can't stop listening to it. I will seriously try to listen to other songs and then just give up because I'll just be thinking about how I'd rather be listening to that album. Also, I get to see him IN CONCERT with Needtobreathe this Friday night. I am so so pumped.

2. For October. I think September is something that I have to drag my feet through before I can really start liking Autumn. Also, October is my birthday month, so I'm kind of partial. And this amazing weather is making it extra easy to love this month already.

3. For awesome grandparents. This weekend my entire family was gone, so I stayed with my grandparents because I hate staying at my house by myself (yes, I'm still scared to sleep in my house alone). I hadn't stayed with them in forever, like maybe since middle school. I forgot how much I love having people taking care of me. I got to watch a chick-flick with my Nanny and football on Sunday afternoon with my grandpa, and sit around and drink coffee with them and  talk. It was wonderful.

4. For the coolest little brother ever. I got to have a date with my brother Matthew on Friday night, which is unusual. It's almost never just the two of us. He's 19 and turning into such a man, and has a huge heart for the Lord. I'm so proud of him.

5. For God slapping me in the face. Even though that's not exactly an accurate description, because God has been much kinder and gentler than that with me, even though I don't deserve it. I've had a terrible attitude about a whole lot of things lately. I find myself getting angry about stupid things, and having a general disposition of ungratefulness. I'm driving the other day and God is saying, It's not about you, Sara. And I'm here thinking, I know that the world doesn't revolve around me, God... 
But you think that your life revolves around you.
Ouch. He's right. I have been treating my life like it's mine to plan and arrange and have it the way that I want it to be. I've been getting angry because I felt like my rights to my life were being violated when things didn't work out how I wanted. You gave all those to me, remember, Sara? Yes... and "Oh, for grace to trust Him more."

6. For this verse: "Lift up your eyes and look to the heavens: Who created all these? He who brings out the starry hosts one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of his great power not one of them is missing." Thank you Jesus for stars.

update

Here's what I've been up to lately

Visiting people I love oh so much...

at Jordan & Justin's wedding (stole the photo from this lady)

Hearing hilarious things at work...


 - We're watching this science video with Edward Norton as the narrator and one of my kids looks at me and says, did you know the Incredible Hulk is in your video?

- Miss Ferren, you smell real good... Like, I'm for real, you smell like roses or somethin'.

- Girl in my class: You ever cheat on any a' yo boyfrens Miss Ferren?
  Me: (definitely caught off guard by the question) um, no.
  Girl in my class: It's not like it's a big deal, ain't like he gonna do nothin'.
  Still not sure exactly what she mean by that...

-A kid wrote "Mrs. (Insert his last name)" all over the paper he turned in to me. Flattering, except that you're 17 and in jail...

Obsessing over Pinterest...

    

  

 

     

and maybe I'll write about more tomorrow :)